Success

Its been a while since I last blogged. Last time I blogged,It was to vent on personal issues like the idiot "friend"that i USED TO HAVE. She called me after a friend of ours from HS died to tell me only that she "No longer holds any grudges"against me..still not an exact APOLOGY so fuck it. All I had to say to her and others was that I DON'T MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE TWICE...dig it?

So anyway, My "SUCCESS"--yesterday ended a crucial chapter in my life and started a fresh one. My mediport was removed because I AM IN REMISSION!! Now the only task at hand is to maintain a healthier diet and workout more because keepin cancer away is what I aim to do. I'm not lettin that shit get to me---ain't no way no how.

Classes start thursday..i'm hype. Can't wait to get back and do my thing, c an't wait to f l y again....paul and I might join the Air Force too right after I graduate..besties doin ti for themselves lol. At least we won't be lonely when we join because we'll have eachother for support.

Good bye yesteryear, hello 2010.

TRANSFORMERS MOVIE RACIST??

HAVE ANY OF YOU ALL SEEN THE LAST TRANSFORMERS MOVIE?"TRANSFORMERS:REVENGE OF THE FALLEN??"WELL FOR THOSE OF YA'LL WHO HAVEN'T,YA NEEDS TO GET TO IT. CRAAAZY WONDERFUL MOVIE,IN MY OPINION. AND 3 OF MY FAVORITE ACTORS ARE IN IT??WHATTT?? U KNOW I HAD TO SEE IT LOL
BUT BACK TO BUISNESS,THERE'S ALOT OF TALK ABOUT HOW THE LATEST TRANSFORMERS MOVIE WAS A BIT ON THE RACIST SIDE,PARTICULARLY TOWARDS PEOPLE OF COLOR.

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YOU WOULD HAVE TO SEE THIS MOVIE FOR YOURSELF IN ORDER TO DEEM IT RACIST OR NOT BUT HERE'S WHY ONE JACKASS SAID IT WAS:

1-ONE ROBOT HAD [WHAT LOOKED LIKE] A GOLD TOOTH

2-WHEN SHIA'S CHARACTER ASKED THEM TO TRANSLATE SOME ANCIENT SYMBOLS,ONE SPOKE FOR BOTH SAYING"WE CAN'T REALLY READ"

3-THE WAY THEY SPOKE USING SLANG AND DANCIN AROUND..ETC.

[WHITE TEENS PLAY AROUND WITH OTHER TEENS,BLACK WHITE OR OTHERWISE AND CALL THEM NIGGAS!!BUT NOBODY SAYS SHIT ABOUT THAT!AND THEY TRY TO ACT THE WAY A BLACK PERSON WOULD ACT]

NOW HERE'S WHAT I THINK:

THE CRITIC WHO SAID THIS MOVIE WAS RACIST..IS A DUMBASS

FOR ALLL THE FANS PUT THERE,UNLIKE THAT DICKHEAD,YOU SHOULD DO YOUR RESEARCH. ONE PERSON SAID THAT THE ROBOTS WERE RACIST BECAUSE THEY HAD A GOLD TOOTH...>THIS GUY>>

this is Skids with his gold tooth who was played by MIKE TYSON!!!

MIKE TYSON HAS A GOLD TOOTH...

WHAT

THE

FUCK

.

Michael Bay SAID THAT THE VOICEOVER CHARACTERS MADE THE 2 AUTOBOTS WHO THEY WERE..SO BAY AND HIS CREW BASICALLY WENT WITH IT.

SEE,I DON'T TAKE OFFENSE TO THIS MOVIE BECAUSE ITS OBVIOUS THAT THE MOVIE WASN'T MADE TO BE RACIST TOWARDS BLACKS..ITS LIKE IN THE FRIGGIN CARTOONS...LOOK AT BEE MOVIE..THE HONEYBEE WAS PLAYED BY SEINFIELD AND LOOKED JUST LIKE HIM! LOOK AT THE SIMPSONS!GUEST STAR-CHARACTERS LOOK JUST LIKE THE GUESTS! SO I GUESS EVERYONE WHO'S FILMS HAVE CHARACTERS WHO LOOK LIKE THEIR VOICEOVERS ARE RACIST.WELL DAMN THEM ALL TO HELL....

AND OF YOU THINK ABOUT IT ALSO,BUMBLEBEE IN "TRANSFORMERS"THE FIRST MOVIE,COULD'NT SPEAK AT FIRST AND SO WHAT DID HE DO?AS SEEN ALSO IN THE SECOND MOVIE,HE USES THE RADIO AND SONGS WITH PARTICULAR PHRASES TO EXPRESS HIMSELF. PEOPLE WILL FIND ANYTHING TO TALK ABOUT AND DO ANYTHING TO GET ATTENTION. wellCONGRATULATIONS TO THE DUMBASS WHO HAD SOMETHIN TO SAY ABOUT THIS MOVIE...MAYBE NEXT TIME YOU SHOULD DO A LITTLE RESEARCH AND GET RU FACTS STRAIGHT BEFORE TRYING TO RUN SOMEONE OUT OF BUISNESS..I MEAN DAMN, I KNOW ECONOMY'S DOIN BAD RIGHT NOW BUT SHITTT!!DO YA REALLY HAVE TO RUB IT IN??

LISTEN...GO SEE TRANSFORMERS AND SEE FOR YOURSELFHOW GOOD THIS MOVIE WAS.I'M LOOKIN FORWARD TO A 3RD BECAUSE AS FAR AS I'M CONCERN...IT'S NOT OVER YET....

ABOUT THIS BLOGGIN STUFF

WHY DOES THIS BLOGGIN SHIT GOTTA B SO DIFFICULT??
I SIMPLY WANNA CHANGE TENPLATES N SKINS LOL N MY HOMEGURL HAVIN TROUBLE TOO LOLLL..MAN FCUK IT
I DO WUT I WANT

FUCK EVERY NYC SCHOOL RULE!!

SO AS I MENTIONED IN AN EARLIER WRITTEN BLOG,I HAD CANCER..BUT WITH THE GRACE OF GOD I BEAT IT!

AIN'T IT FUNNY?I WAS JUST ABOUT TO START SCHOOL...AND LANDED IN THE HOSPITAL THE FIRST WEEK OF.

BUT HERE'S THE GOOD PART;THEY WOULDN'T LET ME BACK IN!!

AND HERE'S HOW IT HAPPEND...

SO,MY SOCIAL WORKER @ THE CLINIC I GOTO WAS TRYNA HELP ME GET BACK ON MY FEET 4 COLLEGE...BEIN THAT I WAS EXTREMLY ILL I HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO WITHDRAW.SO WE FOUND A PROGRAM,ENRICHMENT SERVICES,WHICH HELPED STUDENTS SUCH AS MYSELF WITH DISABILITY OR OTHER TRYNA GET BACK IN TO SCHOOL. I'VE BEEN TALKING TO ONE "MS.W" EVER SINCE I TOOK ILL...WE EVEN HAD 3 OR 4 MEETINGS DEALING WITH MY RETURN.

SO FINALLY NOW,SOMETIME IN APRIL, I HAD MY LAST MEETING WHERE SHE SET UP A SCHEDULE FOR ME AND I PICK CLASSES.DONE.

THEN SHE SAID"GO TO REGISTRAR NOW TO GET UR RECIPT,BRING IT TO ME FOR A COPY AND THEN COME BACK IN A MONTH FOR UR ID.

OK.

OFF I WENT, A HAPPY SKIPPER,TO THE REGISTRAR. I TEL THIS TALL DOOFY ASS LOKIN DUDE WHAT MZW TOLD ME..E GOES"OH WAIT A MINUTE.THEY STILL GOT U DOWN FOR 2008"

...2008?I SAYS,"LOOK,I SHOULD'VE BEEN UPDATED A LONG TIME AGO TO FALL2009 CLASS..WE SHOULDN'T BE SEEIN THIS NOW!"SO HE SENDS ME TO ADMISSIONS N TELLS ME TO ASK THEM TO UPDATE MY PROFILE FROM LAST YEAR TO THIS YEAR.

AND SO THE RUN AROUND BEGINS..

I GOTO ADMISSIONS AND TELL DREADLOCK RASTA MY PROBLEM.HE TOOK 10MINUTES TO FIND MY SHIT CUS THEY HAD IT IN SOMEONE ELSE'S FILE
IGNORANT,IDIOTIC,CARELESS ASSHOLES![and nah i wasn't mad at him cus he was type polite:)lol]THEN WHEN HE FINDS IT,HE GO OUT FOR 5 MINUTES N COME BACK WITH A REFERAL TO SOME NEW PROGRAM!

NOW

I GOTTA GO TO ANOTHER OFFICE AND TALK BOUT THIS PROGRAM WHICH THEY NEVA INFORMED ME ABOUT BEFORE!

SO I GO AND TALK TO THE HEAD BITCH IN CHARGE N SHE GAVE ME ODEE ATTITUDE FOR NO REASON AND I SWEAR TO U ALL I DID WAS SAY HELLO AND HOW ARE U TODAY....SHE TELLS ME THEN THAT IN ORDER TO START I GOTTTA GET CLEARED FINANCIALLY .OFF TO THE FINAID OFFICE I WENT AND THEN BACK HOME.

I CALLED MY SOCIALWORKER AND SAW HER AT Y NEXT APPONTMENT. THEN SHE INTODUCED ME T OA CHILD PSYCOLOGISTS WHO ALSO HELPS TEENS IN PROBLEMS LIKE MINE..AND WHAT SHE TOLD ME WAS THAT BASICALLY ,HER N HER TEAM WILL CALL UP THA SKOOL N IF THEY GET THE SAME B.S,THEY GET ME A LAWYER!

SO THIS IS WHEN I HAD TO SIT BACK AND WATCH WUT WOULD HAPPEN NEXT CUS MOM AND I WENT UP THERE TO TALK TO THEM AND WHEN WE WENT WE TALKED TO 2 COUNSELERS BUT BEFORE I COULD EVEN SAY ANYTHING,THIS DIKCHEAD WORKIN IN THERE HAD TO MAKE IT KNOWN THAT ABOVE ALL"YOU MUST PAY THE $65 FIRST!!"MY MOM WAS LIKE"HELL NO...MATTA FACE U IS THE ONE WHO SHOULD BE PAYIN ME!"WE GOT CALLED IN THE BAC TO TALK TO A COUNSELER NAMED WAYNE AND THEN HE SENT ME TO SOMEONE ELSE ACROSS THE ROOM...THIS GUY HAD THE AUDACITY TO COMPARE ME TO SUM BITCH WHO DROPPED OUTTA SCHOOL-

OK.STOP RIGHT THERE.

DROPPED OUT.

DROPOUT.

COLLEGE DROPOUT [HEYYY..THERE GO KANYE =] ]

MY POINT THO,IS HOW THE HELL CUD U COMPARE ME TO SOMEONE WHO CHOSE TO STOP SCHOOL?THIS SITUATION WAS FUCKED BECUZ FIRST OFF,I DIDN'T DROP OUT OF SCHOOL-I WAS FORCED TO N HAD NO CHOICE AND T-I WASN'T TAKIN CARE OF AN ILL PERSON-I WAS THE ILL PERSON!

SO MOM CUT HIM OFF LIKE "LOOK, I HAVE ANOTHER APPOINTMENT TO ATTEND SO SORRY TO CUT YOU OFF BUT I HAVE TO LEAVE"..AND SO WE LEFT...

WE FLEW OUT TO ROME LATER THAT WEEK,WHERE I HAD NO CELL SERVICE BUT SO WHAT??MAN I ENJOYED MYSELF,NO BITCHIN FROM MY ANNOYIN ASSOCIATES...


AND WHEN WE CAME BACK THE NEXT WEEK,I HAD A VOICEMAIL FROM THE SAME GUY!HE SAID"PLEASE COME IN SO THAT WE CAN GET YOUR REGISTRATION PROCESS FLOWING"..YADDYA..AND I WENT DOWN TO THE SCHOOL AND HE TOLD ME THAT A LETTER FROM THE PRESIDENT OF CUNY CAME IN FOR THEM TO GIVE ME DIRECT ADMISSION!HOW FRIGGIN RETARTED IS THAT??

A SICK STUDENT WHO WAS FORCED TO WITHDRAW BECAUSE OF ILLNESS,HAD TO FIGHT TO GET BACK INTO SCHOOL?WUT TYPE OF SHIT IS THIS?? AND UR FOLLOWING PROTOCOL..RIGHT..CUS THEM BITCHES WANTED ME TO PAY 65 EVERYTIME I WENT DOWN THERE..NO WAY SON,NOT ME...

AFTER ALL OF THAT NOW,I'M BACK IN AND FOR MY MAJOR,I WAS CHOSEN AMONG ABOUT 4O OTHER STUDENTS TO GO AWAY ON TO A RETREAT FOR AN ORIENTAION/HANDS ON TYPE INTRODUCTION TO WHAT I SIGNED UP FOR...

AIN'T THAT SUM SHIT??

MAN I WAS ULTRA FUCKIN PISSED OFF...

Its ME,Bitchess

Yeah so i got a new look,and whaT??
SHORT HAIR DON'T CARE and thas wut it do..because of treatments,i lost my hair
it was expected,but fuck that..no i got the sweetest short cut wit my coolie lookinhair lmaoo.
[i cud pass for a dominicana,or ecuadorian.a nigga in Telco asked me if i was spanish and i said nah,italiana..lmfao i'm a spaz]
i love how niggaz across tha street grill me like they neva seen a black girl with short hair!!and its no s-curl in it!i got natural waves AND curls,OK? lol
man...loovin life..livin life..thas all I need to do...

Always gotta be the negative...

u kno..i would neva understand why a boy could get allllllllll the buddy in tha wolrd but if a girl kiss 2 guys its a problem!! I mean, i could see someone callin a girl a hoe cus she like them boys and is very permiscuous...but if i know a dude who's like that,which i happen to know quite a few,i straight call em out! ain't no man or "Wanna be" man got the right to be calllin a female a hoe! Let me tell you,freshman yr in h.s. dis bitchass little prick named david...he was crushin but i wasn't and because i told him i wasn't interested[i was very polite about it cus i kno i ain't all that but i was flattered i admit*]he decided to play a lil game called "rumors"..
he went about school talkin bout how i gavethis one particular friend of mine the bizness and how i gave him head n we did this and dat shit...
now i'm a "quiet person"when it comes to school and important stuff but lemme tell u tha whole of fuckin manhatten knew me when i whupped dat ass...he came up to me in class a day askin me sum shit..but i was out of it,it was just one of those days wit a killllllaa headache...and he said sum shit so i was like"yo d,jus leave me alone..i dunno" i really wasn't feelin well.
So,he says to my bestie "green ranger"[we still in preschool,i kno lol]"yo dis bitch must be out her mind"so my boy looked at him lkie'yo,don't call her a bitch its one thing to say somethin but neva a bitch not kizzles:,thas a nickname..so david goes on like"?mannn,fuck this trick cus this bitch ain't gon do shit..bitch bitch bitch...she quiet cus its da truth!! she a dirty d**k suckin bitch!"so my homie lookin at him like"n***ga shut da fcuk up nstop disrespectin her like that!man, i got up and in his face and calmly,VERY calmly i said"david,do not EVER call me a dirty dcik suckin bitch EVER...don't call my name for the rest of ur life"and i sat bac doWn..this nigga reallly pushin my buttons n i'm really not feelin it today"u hear dis trick all in my face??david nuhnahnahh nah,bitch plea-"and i got up in his face and decked the dipshit."dON'T FUCKWIT ME DAVIDI'MSICK OF U AND UR BULLSHIT U WANt SUM SMUT TOSUCK UR LITTLE 5 CENTIMETERS,CALL YA BOYFRIEND AND KEEP MAH NAME OUT YA MOUTH!its sad how females get labled ova bullshit like this.....
so correct me if i'm wrong, a hoe is a female who don't give it up and is smarter then u? shit i'd hate to hear wut a trick is...2 days detention for stompin dat n*gguh...damn..best days of my life...smh...

Life...

So I was watchin "Tiny and Toya"and i saw how tiny's dad is sufferin from alzhiemers and day by day it seems he's forgetting things. It goes to show that life's too short and anything can happen.So all your loved ones,keep close to them and let them know you love them.When my CeCe passed,I cried but on the day of her funeral and burial,i smiled cus i know the good Lord was holdin her spot for a good time and she thought"well,i've lived a good life and i'm tired"...i wish i couldstill see my CeCe but its all good cus i know she's right here with me...

Forever and Ever...