Its ME,Bitchess

Yeah so i got a new look,and whaT??
SHORT HAIR DON'T CARE and thas wut it do..because of treatments,i lost my hair
it was expected,but fuck that..no i got the sweetest short cut wit my coolie lookinhair lmaoo.
[i cud pass for a dominicana,or ecuadorian.a nigga in Telco asked me if i was spanish and i said nah,italiana..lmfao i'm a spaz]
i love how niggaz across tha street grill me like they neva seen a black girl with short hair!!and its no s-curl in it!i got natural waves AND curls,OK? lol
man...loovin life..livin life..thas all I need to do...

Always gotta be the negative...

u kno..i would neva understand why a boy could get allllllllll the buddy in tha wolrd but if a girl kiss 2 guys its a problem!! I mean, i could see someone callin a girl a hoe cus she like them boys and is very permiscuous...but if i know a dude who's like that,which i happen to know quite a few,i straight call em out! ain't no man or "Wanna be" man got the right to be calllin a female a hoe! Let me tell you,freshman yr in h.s. dis bitchass little prick named david...he was crushin but i wasn't and because i told him i wasn't interested[i was very polite about it cus i kno i ain't all that but i was flattered i admit*]he decided to play a lil game called "rumors"..
he went about school talkin bout how i gavethis one particular friend of mine the bizness and how i gave him head n we did this and dat shit...
now i'm a "quiet person"when it comes to school and important stuff but lemme tell u tha whole of fuckin manhatten knew me when i whupped dat ass...he came up to me in class a day askin me sum shit..but i was out of it,it was just one of those days wit a killllllaa headache...and he said sum shit so i was like"yo d,jus leave me alone..i dunno" i really wasn't feelin well.
So,he says to my bestie "green ranger"[we still in preschool,i kno lol]"yo dis bitch must be out her mind"so my boy looked at him lkie'yo,don't call her a bitch its one thing to say somethin but neva a bitch not kizzles:,thas a nickname..so david goes on like"?mannn,fuck this trick cus this bitch ain't gon do shit..bitch bitch bitch...she quiet cus its da truth!! she a dirty d**k suckin bitch!"so my homie lookin at him like"n***ga shut da fcuk up nstop disrespectin her like that!man, i got up and in his face and calmly,VERY calmly i said"david,do not EVER call me a dirty dcik suckin bitch EVER...don't call my name for the rest of ur life"and i sat bac doWn..this nigga reallly pushin my buttons n i'm really not feelin it today"u hear dis trick all in my face??david nuhnahnahh nah,bitch plea-"and i got up in his face and decked the dipshit."dON'T FUCKWIT ME DAVIDI'MSICK OF U AND UR BULLSHIT U WANt SUM SMUT TOSUCK UR LITTLE 5 CENTIMETERS,CALL YA BOYFRIEND AND KEEP MAH NAME OUT YA MOUTH!its sad how females get labled ova bullshit like this.....
so correct me if i'm wrong, a hoe is a female who don't give it up and is smarter then u? shit i'd hate to hear wut a trick is...2 days detention for stompin dat n*gguh...damn..best days of my life...smh...

Life...

So I was watchin "Tiny and Toya"and i saw how tiny's dad is sufferin from alzhiemers and day by day it seems he's forgetting things. It goes to show that life's too short and anything can happen.So all your loved ones,keep close to them and let them know you love them.When my CeCe passed,I cried but on the day of her funeral and burial,i smiled cus i know the good Lord was holdin her spot for a good time and she thought"well,i've lived a good life and i'm tired"...i wish i couldstill see my CeCe but its all good cus i know she's right here with me...

Forever and Ever...

Sick and tired....

As a young child growin up,you know when you ask mom and dad for certain things the answer is either yes or no...and then you hear from someone else"when you get older,you could do whatever you want"or the reason i always get mad"Wait until you are 18,because then you become an adult".Because of certain actions commited by certain family membersof mine,It seems i may never be treated as an adult....

Just when you think ur movin on up and finally get to have an opinion in the "Real world",u get shot down.I get shot down. Before i got ill i wanted a pet...ilove dogs,i like reptiles like chameleons because i find these animalsvery interesting.i've always had fish and wanted a hamster...something i could actually play with and take outside sometimes...but at the time i was ill,i was'nt allowed to be around any animal because my blood counts were deadly low and overall i was more then vulnerable to any infection so i had to lay low. But now i take everything one day at a time because i'm in remission and doing extremly well ...and i'm very rarelyaround animals until recently...my bro's dog had pups and he was nice enough to make sure he'd keep one for me.....very thoughtful of him..but other then pups,i wanted to hangout with him cus he's really cool and i don't even get to really be around my friends to just chill and i don't be around fam cus' they all live in another state now or overseas and my "bro"is..let's just say walkin distance from me..and i still don't get to see him! the thing is,although i'm in remission,i don't take chances..its not an option lol and i'm NEVER around animals...even @ the clinic i go2 in the city because once or twice a week someone brings a dog for the kids to play with but i keep my distance..iwanna go to my cuzzos house to hang with HIM...the pups are the scene and need a break and to be with their mother...i can't go to my bro's house cus automatically "somebody"thinks i jus wanna be around the puppies..but they will always be there!and in all honsty,i had my chance to be with all of them and hav a little fun but i jus wanna hang with my big bro...shit stinks right now[but when does'nt it?]

anyway,hopefully,things will work out sooner then later and i'll be given a little more freedom..fuckkkkkkkkkkkk i'm bout to be 19!! i jus wanna be able to do me..ON MY OWN and without opinions and "orders"all tha damn time..wut fun is life if i can't live it...

From a more mature perspective...

I hate fake people.If you have something to say,then say it.Don't talk about it or gossip to others if you're not going to confront the one who is involved in your situation.

For example,i know this couple.The girl,I love to death.The other is her deadbeat on again off again bf,Mr.Bitch.

Well,Mr.Bitch likes to drink and smoke and live in his momma's house...JOBLESS.

what a man,what a man,what a mighty good man.

mighty good Bitch you mean.

What?Don't call him a bitch?i wouldn't like it if he called me one?Well shit,I call it like I see it and I DARE HIM to call me a bitch.He calls homegirl a bitch and that's his baby mama?WTF??

Shit,he straight calls her out and embarrasses her.

But she embarrasses her self.

The reason i call him a bitch is because of what he has done,and what he continues to do.The reason i don't exactly feel pity for her is because she puts herself in these situations and she's too blind to see what's goin on.But most importantly i blame her parents cus she's followin in their footsteps.

Mr.Bitch can bitch about homegirl not buyin supplies for their sweet child and how she wastes her last dollar on a blunt..but yet he don't even offer tissue to wipe his baby's ass??MAN.WUT A BITCH.

I never thought she'd turn out like this but i didn't think she'd end up with a loser like him.

and the one who suffers most is the innocent child they have together.The one who's ass he won't clean.

I wish her the best,i really do.That's what i hate, young girls who fall vulnerable for ignorant jailbait.I don't like guys whose pants sit under their asses,i think they're gay.And girls who purposly expose themselves to these...boys..and change for them...my thing is "if u can't love me for who i am,then don't love me at all".

I wish these girls today we're more observant and notice a guy thats no good.These guys need to open their eyes and realize which girls to stay away from too.Just because he looks cute doesn't mean his attitude is.And if he/she cheated once wat makes u think it won't happen again?second chances are offered and sometimes they keep their promises but what good does a promise do you when its the 4th or 5th time?what if you're the one layin on some hospital bed or even worse,you're the one in the morgue?

Like I said,I hate fake people.The way I see it,only God can judge us and we should'nt judge eachother either especially if we've done as much wrong as the other person.

I just hope young people can be as wise and make the right decisions..i'm sick of hearin about teenage pregnancy and young dope feigns,teeneage deaths caused because of drugs.Its sickening and its time we all wake up and finally realize life isn't a joke.